There is nothing in this world that is more alarming than people becoming ignorant of every aspect of life. Today, there is an awakening that is occurring. More people are starting to see things because everything that has been hidden is coming into the light – from injustices to results of technological revolution, per se. As we live and speak in truth, it is about time that we experience rebirth and let go of anything that suppresses us. In return, our relationship with God strengthens, and all the right things happen next. As we read some parts of Illuminata: A Return to Prayer, we dive into the concept of a spiritual renaissance as we live and survive in this digital age.
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I went book shopping and I started reading one that I liked a lot. I was going to talk about it but in the spirit of being authentic, I didn’t feel talking about this subject yet. I may do it soon. It’s a good book. It’s called A Life Beyond Amazing. The first subject is about love. To be honest with you, I didn’t feel like talking about that now because I picked up another book and it’s got my interest. I grazed over it and it’s a fascinating book. We’re going to go into this now and it’s called Illuminata: A Return to Prayer. I’ve read four pages of it and it’s hitting me over the head already. I’m already in four pages. My mind is like, “I’m going to love this book.”
I’m going to share a poem first. “I see in my mind a little ball of golden light. I watched this light as it begins to grow larger and larger until now it covers the entire inner vision of my mind. I see within this light a beautiful temple. I see a garden that surrounds the temple and a body of water that flows through the garden. I see that the inside of the temple is lit by the same beautiful golden light and I am here, for I have been drawn here by the power and the presence of God. I dedicate my days and my relationships and experiences to you. May your spirit, which is within me, guide my thoughts, my feelings and my perceptions of all things. That I might grow into a happier, fuller, more loving human being. Illumine my mind. Illumine my life. Amen.”
That’s the first part that started. The reason why I want to talk about this is that I’ve been leading up to it. The reason I wanted to read this book is that one of my favorite speakers is Graham Cooke and I was listening to some audio. It was 11:30 at night and I got excited because he said what I’d been feeling. There is an awakening happening and there are a lot of people talking about awakening, but everything that has been hidden is coming into light. We’re starting to see things that some of us don’t want to see, but we get to see them. Injustices. You’re getting to see the levels of discrimination, the levels of harassment.Doing the right thing is about to be the new cool thing. Click To Tweet
All the people that have been suppressing and holding people back that are including religion, those people are starting to be exposed. The celebrities, the rich and famous. There would be the USC scandal happening with the college admission scandals and people being on a sports team. People that don’t even play the sport, but because they want to be part of the team, they are into the team. I don’t know if that resonates with anyone how disgusting that is. There are people that grow up depressed and feeling not worthy and feeling not good enough because all they want to do is be on the team.
Here are gymnasts, football players, even golfers. People that are competitive, they busted their butt daily, they stress out, they completely go nuts to get a scholarship offer may be. Yet with the sweep of a pen, somebody that’s never rowed in their life is now on the rowing team, which is a sacred thing at USC. People are being exposed. The evil in this city I live in is being exposed. Hollywood is being turned on its head. I promise you, those of you who are doing things right, those of you that are warriors for them doing the right thing. You’ve had those aspirations of being an actress and actor, getting into the music industry. The music industry is already shifting.
The time is coming for the people that want to do things the right way, they want to stand in integrity, and they want to stand in truth. The time is coming for you. It’s coming for you to be the next celebrity. It’s the modern-day celebrity. You’re probably saying, “I don’t want to be a celebrity.” It’s not about being a celebrity. Those people that say, “Nice guys finish last,” that’s about to change. Doing the right thing is about to be the new cool thing. I promise you, it’s happening. The whole point of that is I can feel it. There’s an awakening happening to me.
Graham Cooke said something that blew my mind. I sent this to everyone I knew. I even sent it to people that aren’t believers because Graham Cooke, who’s probably one of the highest levels of believers I know and truly into the supernatural. I talk about my relationship with Christ, it’s a supernatural relationship. It’s not this crap you hear in church. It’s different. It’s not religion. Graham Cooke helped me to see that and guided me of how I talk to God, how I pray, how I let things go. That’s why I learned that thought. I heard him say on audio talking about we are learning things.
We, as a whole, as a nation, as a world, we are learning that there is much more to what has been presented to us. There are deeper levels of faith we’re just starting to understand. We’ve had a lot of information withheld from us. We have been suppressed. If we’re in the information age, I get that but we have been suppressed of the truth for so long. We are told what to memorize in school. Not what to learn, not how you take your gift, the thing you’re naturally good at, the way you learn. If you learn a little bit different, you’re a little bit different. You have ADD, we’re going to give you medication. You’re uncontrollable. Some kids learn differently. I grew up thinking I was a moron. I hated school. It’s because I felt dumb. I didn’t learn the way they were trying to get me to memorize things.
Living And Speaking In Truth
I don’t have a real education because I cheated my way through high school. I went to college, I wasn’t partying. At the same time, I know I’m a smart guy. My brain works differently and there are a lot of us that are like that. How many of us felt stupid? When I picked up this book, I was like, “We have to talk about this.” I’m going to read it cold because I didn’t prepare for this, so bear with me, “If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.” It’s time to live and speak in truth. The things you’re suppressing that you don’t want anyone to know, it’s time to bring that stuff to the surface. I don’t know how some of you are going to feel about this, but that came from the Gospel of Thomas, some of those books of the Bible that probably should be there.If hateful words are coming out of your mouth with a label after it, odds are you're watching too much news. Click To Tweet
When I decided to become unfiltered about my ugly truth and it’s ugly. When I became bold in my desire to be unfiltered about this is because I keep getting these opportunities to do something different and fun. Every time I would be presented with those opportunities over the years, I thought if someone finds out I’ve had sex with men, what are they going to think? If someone finds out I’ve been in jail six times, if someone finds out that I have HIV, what are they going to say? Instead of owning it, I’m going to sabotage my success. I’m going to sabotage this amazing thing that’s available for me. The truth is I couldn’t see how amazing. It would be so cool. How many of us have been here? If my name gets out there, maybe someone from my past may speak up, talk about what a horrible, awful person I am. Show naked pictures or video of me and they’re going to put it out everywhere. They’re going to talk about all the crazy drugs, the four-day binges of meth. They’re going to tell people about it and they’re going to expose my secrets. I can’t expose my secrets and then go back to the path that was killing you.
There is a spiritual renaissance. Most people feel it. Many embrace it and no one can stop it. It is a revolution in the way we think. Its torch-bearers are a motley mix. Some are religious in a traditional sense, while some are not. Some are successful in the world, while some are not. Some of us genuinely like one another, while some of us do not. Some are politically liberal, while some of us are conservative. Some seek truth and fellowship, and some seek truth alone. Some of us are old and some of us are young. When we’re the unsorted group, an unlabeled group, but together in spirit we are affecting the world in significant ways. We are turning away from purely a worldly orientation.
We seek an ancient God and a modern God. We feel current of change, cosmic electricity running through our veins now. How many of you can say that? However, despite our personalities and interests, we all agree on one very important point. Time has come to major crossroads at which the spirit alone can lead us toward human survival. We wage in a way a revolution based on love. We seek to replace an old oppressive order. Not so much politically or socially, but within our minds where it lives and works. We try to hate no one, for we recognize that hatred itself is the enemy. We’re waking up to this despite what you see on the news. Turn off the freaking news. It’s poisoning you. A good test for that is if hateful words are coming out of your mouth with a label after it, odds are you’re watching too much news.
The first shots of wrong out in this revolution and they were not shots. They were bursts of light streaming silently, yet dramatically, through the hearts and minds of millions. This historic enfoldment has already begun and is playing out in our inner planes. The question on most people’s minds whether conscious or unconscious is, “What will happen now?” From the channel of entities claiming to hell from the Pleiades to fundamentalist Christians, from the prophecies of Nostradamus to visions of the Virgin Mary, from angels who whisper to the backwoods carpenter. To a scientific think tank come predictions of a global shift, perhaps capitalism in the years ahead.
Our own inner sense corroborates the evidence. It doesn’t seem as though the future is going much than the past. Something is up as though something significant and big is about to occur. Something big is happening. There is the shift that’s happening in the world and it’s amazing to be a part of. Not to go downhill quick, but what do you think the blockchain really is? What do you think 5G technology is? What do you think the importance of that is? Why do you think governments are all racing to be the first 5G carrier? Why do you think that’s important? I’m asking you these questions because if you’re curious about the answer, you can go and google and search for yourself what it means. Why is 5G important? Why is 5G called the internet of everything?
Look at the multiple uses for blockchain. Pay attention to what’s happening in other countries. If you don’t watch the news and you start looking around at what’s happening in the world, you will start to see that there are a lot of major business transactions that happen. There are a lot of major things that get signed. All the leaders meet with the pope and they sign an agreement swearing their allegiance. I’ll let that sit how it does with you. Do you know what that means? There’s a lot of change in the world. Cryptocurrency is a thing for a reason. What are Bitcoin and cybercurrencies attached to? The same thing 5G is too. That means one world currency is not that far off because we are heading into a world where we’re going to have universal income. It’s happening. There are a lot of things changing that maybe we don’t see because we are enamored with our social media. I’m guilty as anybody, but we’re not paying attention to what’s going around. At the same time, with all that spooky stuff, there are a lot of amazing things happening too.The antidote to what is fundamentally wrong is the cultivation of what is fundamentally right. Click To Tweet
The advances in science are amazing. Healthcare is dramatically changing for the better. There’s a major shift going on in the world and it’s exciting to be a part of, especially if you have peace about where you’re going. Mind control. There’s some interesting stuff in this. We’re in the middle of a universal change on vibration. It’s changing fast. It feels for one thing as though something is fundamentally wrong. It isn’t just the environment, the wars, the gangs or the violence or the drugs. I’ll stop there. I’ve got a question. What do you think we are fighting wars for? What do you think it is? I’d love to know if you still think we’re fighting the war on terror.
You can connect dots to war, drug trade, the current pharmaceutical crisis we have. Connect the dots. Afghanistan, poppy fields, we have heroin and an opioid epidemic. Isn’t that strange to any of you? Isn’t it strange that we have military guarding poppy fields and back home in the United States we have an opioid epidemic? The rise was 1,000% or something insane like that. Some of us are waking up to it. When you wake up to those things, you get to start questioning everything. It’s okay to ask questions. It’s okay to challenge. I challenged God. I still challenge God.
It’s okay because there are a lot of you I know that is hurting too. Sometimes you can challenge God. Some people call that blasphemous. I don’t know. It changed everything for me. It’s okay to ask questions. This is how we learn. This is how we grow. It isn’t a lack of values or integrity or love. Something lurks. In Yeats’ poem, The Second Coming, he describes a time when our center isn’t holding, the center isn’t there. The deeper the despair that seems to creep around the edge of things, the brighter the light that seems to beckon from the center. It turns out that the center only seemed not to be there. It has merely been ignored. The further we get away from God, the further we get away from love, the further we get away from the truth, the more haywire things go.
The closer you are to God and you will have access to your spirit and that amazing way where it’s guiding you about the decisions you’re making, the choices you’re making. Talking about the center, the heart, I think that statement is our heart. How are we connected to our heart? Are we heart out or heart-center? When you’re heart-centered, you come from a place of love. It dramatically changes the way you respond to people. I know I want to talk about this. It changes your reactions, how you respond, how you speak initially, maybe how you interact with your face.
I’ve got to be honest about something. It’s confession time for me. I was on my way to family night after the show to do go with my church. While I was there I thought, “I don’t have a contract yet for this.” I’ve been filming in San Diego for the TV version of this show. I was like, “I don’t have a contract yet. I was promised a contract a few months ago.” It was a bugging me. I was like, “I need a contract.” I sent a text that things are happening behind the scenes that are exciting and things I get to be grateful for. I thought, “They’re building a freaking TV channel. They need to protect themselves too. Perhaps I should have a contract, especially before money starts to come in and stuff like that.” I sent a text, but say that text of asking where the contract was led to something that was not supposed to be. I don’t know how many of us have ever been in situations and I’m a fighter. I can turn the other cheek quite a bit, but I get that practice turning a little bit longer. I ended up picking up the phone to call to clear the air and say what was going on. I didn’t get a chance to talk. They started going after me. “Will you let me talk?” Nothing. After several minutes of this, I was trying to help and do the right thing.
I snapped even asking for forgiveness. I didn’t ask for forgiveness. I said I was sorry. I don’t like the way that makes me feel at all. There were a couple of things that came out of that. One, I’ve decided not to continue filming for the TV version of the show. I do feel that’s the right decision. This is TV show number four that didn’t happen. Am I disappointed? Yeah, but I’m not happy the way I responded and it’s not set right in my soul. The whole not filming for TV anymore for this show, for TV, it doesn’t bother me anymore. It doesn’t bother me at all because honestly my vision is to have my own network and ministry anyway. That’s what I feel called to do. I want to change Hollywood. That is my goal, one of many.What you do not bring forth within you will destroy you. Click To Tweet
That camera shop is going to be ours. It’s where the ministry is going to start the TV. I know it in my heart and soul, so I’m not upset about that. What I am upset about is that I go away by letting someone get to me because the entire time and this is true. I don’t know if any of you ever had this where you lose your temper. You have this voice of going in the conversation. You don’t have to continue the conversation. Be patient. This need that I have, this exposed something in me that I don’t know. Do you know when your wife or your girlfriend’s mad at you and then you try to hug them when they’re mad or you try to grab their arms and say, “Everything’s going to be okay,” and it makes things way worse. For me, I have this need to want to make things right. I want to help people and then when people are hurting, I want to comfort them.
In this situation, I was being hurt, but I wanted to make things right. In doing it, I made it worse. A day later, I feel funky. I felt funky all day because I ended a relationship and a friendship, but I also know that was the right thing to do. At the same time, I’m not proud of how I responded to it. I know it’s not that big of a deal maybe, but to me, it is because I’m human and it’s crazy about life. No matter how much momentum you get, maybe you’re cruising along and everything’s great and you’re flying around and everything’s fine. You do a stupid human thing and it upsets my day. I’m sharing that with you. I’m confessing. I’m going to use this as what the Catholics call it, the confessional. I’m going to use this space as my confessional.
The deeper the despair that seems to creep around the edges of things, the brighter the light that seems to beckon from the center. It turns out that the center only seemed not to be there. It is merely being ignored. To those who look inward, it is bright indeed. Now growing into the design of humanity is seeking its source. It’s strange to me because there are many people that are waking up, and yet at the same time, there are many people that are hurting and suffering in silence. We’re all seeking a god to fix things or a human to fix things or we’re just seeking. There are a lot of false gods out there. There are a lot of false and empty things that people run to look for salvation. I tried them all too.
I remember saying the words, “I believe in one universal God.” Come to find out in the Bible it talks about there are a lot of gods like one, like the man God. I say the man. I don’t think he’s a man or a woman. I think he’s just God. Why do we say He? Can someone tell me that? How do we know the real one? I don’t mean to offend anybody by this. We’re seeking because we’re hurting. There are not enough drugs in the world. There’s not enough alcohol in the world. There’s not enough sex in the world to heal our hearts. I’ve been on a documented journey of healing. A video popped up from a couple of years ago of me on the beach, and this is right after being homeless and that wild adventure that was. Seeing the journey and where I was then and where I’m at now. I haven’t made it, but I have been able to go back and see what the miracle that God has done in my life. I’m humbled with what God has done in my life, but I also did the work and I seek that relationship. Through that experience, I was angry, so much hate built up inside me.
Compassion and forgiveness. With each step that was taken, this process of going, “Now work on this, this sphere. Now handle this.” It’s allowed some pretty radical healing. Not perfect, but it’s allowed for some radical, amazing healing. It’s allowed me to grow. Ultimately, it’s happened through my relationship with Christ. I know a lot of people have a lot of different practices out there. They have a lot of different beliefs, but in my experience, the only thing that filled that hole in my heart was my relationship with Christ. That’s all I know. The antidote to what is fundamentally wrong is the cultivation what is fundamentally right. Should we choose to expand who we are on a fundamental level? New structures will replace the casualties of the pre-millennium disintegration? The next twenty years will usher in an age of light more dazzling than the world has known. The next twenty years will be the deciding factor. We need all our attention and all our focus to turn the species in the direction of survival. There’s a lot of crazy stuff happening in the world.
Ultimately, the choice is to love each other. Ultimately, the choice to love each other is the only choice for a survivable future. The meek shall inherit the Earth because everyone else will have died on their wounds. The meek shall inherit the Earth because everyone will have died. I know there are arguments for border walls and a lot of us have border walls. I know that there is a strong argument for them. I’ll tell you one thing, I want and get to live in a world where our friends in Singapore, our friends in Mexico, our friends in Russia, our friends in Korea, our friends in Europe, Germany, any friends in Canada. The more I meet around the world that read this blog and the different platforms and the podcast and on their radio. The more that I interact with them, I’m like, “You could have grown up down the street for me. You’re not special.” I thought living in Korea was cool. It sounds like California. That’s a crappy example, but we’re not that different. Even people that have different religious beliefs than us. There are people with different beliefs on here. I’m proud of that. I think it’s amazing. In the end, we’re not that different and it’s special. If with that realization that we’re not that different, why is it hard to open our hearts to people? I got to think.Opening our hearts to what's different will inevitably allow us to see that we're all the same. Click To Tweet
I know how I am with going into a restaurant. I like going to a restaurant where I got to know someone for some reason it makes me feel more comfortable. I don’t know what it is. I’ve not been able to get over this. Sometimes I get uncomfortable and I’ll leave. There’s something about it. When I know someone’s going to be there I know, it changes the whole atmosphere of my experience. Is it like that for you? Maybe I could be weird. That’s okay. I accept this. My point is if I’m rolling to Singapore and I’m going to be in Singapore for a week, I rely on a tour guide to tell me the cool things to see. I’m going to want to experience local and why not experience it with the local that you know, that you’ve become in friendship with. Why wouldn’t you want that experience, regardless of their beliefs being different than you and maybe they look different or talk different or worship differently? Opening our hearts to what’s different inevitably will allow us to see we’re all the same. I love the start of this book.