Very few of you know that my lifetime obsession and dream job was to have my own radio show. Seriously. It has nothing to do with my Barry White-ish booming voice or my “got it from my momma” good looks. (Wait, that made no sense. If I had ‘got it from my momma” good looks why would I want to do radio???) Well, my mom is really pretty and I wanted to do radio, deal with it.
So yeah, radio.
I was around 12 or 13 years old when I first started listening to talk radio and paying attention to DJ’s more than I listened to music. Even to this day, I prefer listening to talk radio way more than I do music. I love music but even “commercial free” satellite radio plays the same crap over and over again. At least with talk radio, you will get a variety of opinions, even when the subject is on repeat all day long.
When I moved to California it was with the intentions of making my dreams come true and in no way shape or form did I think that radio or TV were an option. In fact, when I was asked to do reality TV I shot it down so fast, I made my own head spin. The dreams I was pursuing was to find a way to take all of my interest and tie it all together to make something magical happen. It was about business, not being a TV or Radio star.
I care deeply about my brands and the strategies that my team and I come up with are aimed at global success and exposure. We invent crazy, unorthodox ways to build brand recognition without damaging their credibility. Most of our brands fit into the luxury or medical aesthetic categories, although we have a few products that fit the needs and budgets of a majority of the world. That said, these are classy, well-respected brands and are promoted as such.
I realize that becoming the co-host of a new TV show does not guarantee that I will become a star, however, I know without a shadow of a doubt, that I will work my butt off to make it a success. I am also fortunate to know some of the best of the best to help me succeed. I will succeeed with this venture because I always find a way and you know what? Succeeding with this show frightens the hell out of me.
I have shared on multiple occasions when I first started this blog, that I am an excessively driven person. I have always lived with an Entrepreneurs spirit and been really good at what I have done professionally. I have never been perfect, by the book or even scripted. Thank God for being dyslexic and severe ADHD!! Seriously, it was not until I read Malcolm Gladwell’s “David Vs. Goliath” did I understand that these perceived limits were what made me exceptional at what I do. Changing my mindset was the first step in me understanding my true potential.
My fear is silly but it is real. It is not that I am scared to be on TV or the Radio because once I get the “feel” for TV and how things operate I will succeed. More importantly, my brands will get huge exposure from the show especially with the people who are behind it! (more on that in another blog) and that is my ultimate goal. I am the “mouth piece” and the driver behind all of the brands I represent and as is my co-host who may be just as unfiltered and driven as I am so we will get a lot of attention. It is inevitable and with that will come curiosity about our lives, present, and the unholy past.
I have never been one to hide or run from my past and then again I have never had the amount of exposure that I am about to have. Feeling confident in the face of questions about my life before I gave my life to Christ is something I have done with pleasure but it usually in the back of Uber or some at random event that I feel like God is asking me to share something revealing about myself to help another person who might be struggling.
If you follow Christ or a religion of any kind maybe you have had one of those moments when “the old you was dead and a new you was born”. I had mine, 2 days into a 4-day jail visit. It funny what happens when you pick up a Bible and read it over and over again. Admittedly, they would not give me People or Rolling Stone and I knew (or told myself) that getting a Bible was my constitutional right in jail. So I read out of boredom and read to fall asleep until, in a moment my heart changed.
I have even shared in my blogs early on a little about my past but when I write, I do it for me, not you. Well, that is not entirely true but I do want to teach myself how to be a good writer but I never believed that anyone would ever read my writing. Now, people do read it and I have actually met a few people who like my writing. That means a lot to me and I am also realistic enough to know the value of video content and how much more exposure it gets. When you have the producers that we will have behind the show, it almost guarantees more eyeballs.
You get what you pray for, it is just not delivered how you expect it to typically.
I have always thought of myself as a leader and my reputation would support that. I am a pretty big guy, usually at the very least in pretty good shape and I am 6ft 2inches. I have a large, booming voice even when I whisper. When I am passionate about something the world knows it. I do not do it purposely, it is natural, like an instinct. If I do not care about it, the “it” does not exist.
I asked God to use me like Joshua, you know, Joshua in the Bible. I have always believed the hell that I lived in and survived was meant for something way bigger than my brain could comprehend. I did not just live in hell, I created it for a lot of people too. My professional life was the only thing I had in order and was successful at. To be honest, I only cared about how I performed professionally. I really care about the people I helped for 18 years and I still care deeply about my previous industry and I owe it a lot.
I know that even though I was really successful in complex rehab medical equipment, I did not do as much as I should have. My personal life being a wreck robbed me of the joy of helping even more people and giving back more. It also robbed me of quality time with my family, especially my father. Now that my life is so much different I do not wish I could change anything. The experiences of my past have allowed me to have genuine compassion for others in ways I did not think was possible. My drive to want to help people is bigger than ever and it is because I feel that is what I am led to do, on a huge global scale.
My personal life will eventually come up and as scary as it is, I am hopeful that my story will be able to help someone else living in their own current hell. I now know why people call it being Saved. Look, I am a follower of Christ but I love everyone. A Muslim woman took me in after I lost everything and showed me, love. 35% of my friends are Muslim and more than half of my friends have different beliefs and that is ok! I love them and please understand I am not preaching at anyone. I am just sharing a story 🙂 .
I am in no way perfect but I am committed to getting better every day. My prayer is that I will remain strong and committed to always being authentic and genuine because that is the one thing that can never be taken from me. In doing that, my future and current partnerships will be smashing success.
I went off today a little but I needed to write this. I hope you enjoyed it and please leave a comment if you did. Thank you and God Bless!
Healthcare and medical aesthetic consultant, beauty broker, lifestyle concierge and now…..TV Host.